Friday, August 10, 2012

...and even the brightest of stars burn out

Hello, old friend. How long has it been since we chanced upon each other or articulated with one another?

I shall come clean and be outrageously honest. I feel sad. I haven't been feeling anything for a long while now. I've been apathetic and closed off from emotions as well as feelings. However, right now, I feel sad - the kind of sadness that looms and lingers around you.

I just want to run, or a reason to stay. I feel like nobody truly sees me for me. They look at me, but they stare right through as if I am starkly translucent and invisible. In a crowded room with people whizzing past and all around me yet I would feel utterly alone like I am a ghost that nobody could see and they walk right through me.

There are times I would look to fortune telling, to crystal balls, horoscope readings, tarot cards and all things clairvoyant. It isn't because I am superstitious or I actually believe in them. It is because I am desperate, desperate to find answers.


I have been waiting for my life to begin, I still am and I pray religiously every night, but quite frankly, my patience is wearing thin.

8 comments:

  1. there's no need to feel sad...sometimes people doesn't realize the important of you in their life because it's already a habit that you are in their life...the advise I can give you is whenever is a sad day or a happy day...it's also content 24hours...why don't you make it a happy day...this might be cruel for you but you still have to move on day by day...why don't you tell this problem to your friends...maybe hugging someone you like or love will decrease the sadness that you are having.

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  2. The people I want to hug aren't around, but thank you either way, sweet thing. :)

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  4. Lol, dude, that was a gratitude post if you don't know how to read and why would my burden be carried by my mother?! That happened almost two years ago, crying into her shoulders does not mean she is carrying my burden, wtf. It just means she is there for me when I need her like every mother should. Plus, I think I am pretty carefree, wtf. Nobody would ever get used to the idea of their parents dying please, wtf, but life still goes on, wtf wtf.

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  7. walking here with a smile. take care.. have a nice day ~ =)

    Regards,
    http://www.lonelyreload.com (A Growing Teenager Diary) ..

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