Hello, old friend. How long has it been since we chanced upon each other or articulated with one another?
I shall come clean and be outrageously honest. I feel sad. I haven't been feeling anything for a long while now. I've been apathetic and closed off from emotions as well as feelings. However, right now, I feel sad - the kind of sadness that looms and lingers around you.
I just want to run, or a reason to stay. I feel like nobody truly sees me for me. They look at me, but they stare right through as if I am starkly translucent and invisible. In a crowded room with people whizzing past and all around me yet I would feel utterly alone like I am a ghost that nobody could see and they walk right through me.
There are times I would look to fortune telling, to crystal balls, horoscope readings, tarot cards and all things clairvoyant. It isn't because I am superstitious or I actually believe in them. It is because I am desperate, desperate to find answers.
I have been waiting for my life to begin, I still am and I pray religiously every night, but quite frankly, my patience is wearing thin.